To very shortly put it, my parents live in two different places because of the military. I have been living with my mother and two sisters this past year, however that is no longer going to be the case. My younger sister had been visiting my father at his new posting across the country, but has decided to live with him as well. Originally she and my mother were going to move there to be with him next year, after I graduated.
But now, she's not.
She and I have talked, and I understand her reasons, there is freedom of safety living there, she has made a bunch of friends, and she wants to be with him, stuff like that. I am at peace with that, but, it's hard. My little baby munchkin is moving on without me, and I can't remember life before her either. I have been an older sister for so long now, I can't think of being the youngest in the family again.
She and I fight, as most siblings do, so maybe the space will help with that, but I fear that maybe she thinks I pushed her away, and it is killing me. I want to be happy for her, but I can't.
So if I seem down, well that's because I am. And I have only felt this sorrow a few times before, I don't know how to deal with it. I don't want to lose my baby sister, but I have to.